The first man told me he could see nothing wrong. “But bring her back in four hours and we’ll have another look.”
The next woman said it was usually nothing but we’ll do the standard blood tests and xray.
The next man, an hour’s drive away, said we’re going to operate. Now.
They said to sing to my limp six month-old baby as she fell off the precipice of consciousness and into emergency surgery.
The next man said “It’s pneumococcal disease. I think we’ve got it. Now she’ll have medicine in her jugular for a month.”
That man got out of his bed at 1am in the dead of winter, tiny to save our baby’s life. He came to visit the next morning. He looked like he could cry when he said to me “you’ve had a bad night hey? Is she not doing that well?”
At later bad news he did suggest a tear in my presence. “I’m sorry I couldn’t hide my worry…” I said I wouldn’t get through this with a doctor who didn’t show he cares.
We were “part of the furniture” they said, we were there that long. Women and men crowded around us like a pair of arms, carrying us, caring for us, showing us love while we were isolated from those who loved us. My baby floated upon their compassion, up and down, through needles, tubes, oxygen and isolation. They dragged me when I stopped, heavy on the outskirts of their responsibility, crying, sleepless, insane and unsure.
‘Nurse’ and ‘doctor’ are silly words. These people have God in them. They save lives. They saved mine: Our baby survived.
Sydney Children’s Hospital made her little life that is less, much more.
Monday 8 June is the Gold Telethon, a fund raiser for the hospital. You never know, you may just need it too one day. http://www.goldweektelethon.com.au/views/donate.aspx